breaking up

Earlier, I received an email from Dwen...at first syempre I was very eager to read it kasi nman its been 2 long months na since we didnt have any communication...

Pero I was deeply hurted upon reading it...It was a confession and break up letter..you know what...I wasnt able na to control and calm over my feelings..that's why I cried and let my tears flow down from my eyes while I was inside the internet station...masakit..it really hurted me...All these times pala of patiently waiting for him...eh..he involved na pala in other relationship there in Malaysia...

HAVE I Committed something wrong to HIM that he have to do this to me?

i think it was so unfair....

And the painful thing to know there was that..he also logged in that time nung naka log in ako...but maybe for some reasons that i dont know..maybe when he saw that I was online...he immediately logged out..OUCH! masakit yun...it was like he crushed my heart...I ddnt expect him to do that to me...


But now..i think i have to move on...give moment to heal those wounds that he caused me....

ewan ko...siguro it is better to be this way...I think God let this thing to occur because he has a bigger plans of making me happy in life...the kind of happiness that Dwen never gave unto me...who was he/ I still dont know..but Ill just wait for that ryt moment to come...


about Sam...I stil have to think what about him...most especially now that I am still in the process of healing..I like to give time and space for his love...I dont want to be unfair to him...I dont want him to become of victim of love...like what I used to be now...he 's a good person and therefore dont deserves to be treated unfairly...

sa ngaun..I have to move on...heal those ill feelings...try to forgive and forget...and continue my life...

"Life sometimes needs to hurt and and let you fall down on your knees..So for you to be able to make realizations...changes to continue strggling along the sails of your life."