my send off letter for him...

Thank you for the email...

Hermm...How am I going to start this letter...

opps! to solely feel my "presence" there like im speaking to you..please play the mp3 i sent to you earlier...
I really dont know what am i going to say..there are two things that comes into my mind...

First is to say...

" I hate you a lot for giving me heartaches! Im promising to myself that i wont talk with you anymore!

Or the second one...

"Thank you for coming into my life and making me happy...though I know that u cant stay anymore..."

But Ill go with the second one...



But hmmm..i think this is how im going to start my letter....


Hi...


Thats it...

I got AND read ur email yesterday afternoon... i was surprised and happy receiving a letter for you...I think it was the most beautiful birthday present not until I have come to read what it says there...

Ah... so youre not stayin in ur house anymore? Yeah, Ate Ina also told me ...few weeks ago, i sent her an email to ask some news about you...i asked if you are doing fine, If you are far from any sickness and what's new about you...Then she told me that youre not stayin at home anymore...that you are living with your cousins,..

Thats why I cried to joy when you sent me txt msage last monday...honestly to say...


Im still not ready to open up this topic...to be honest again to you...you know that It caused me pain to know...to know that I was waiting too long for you...then all of the sudden I will come to know that i was juzt waitin for no one anymore...

I was in the net cafe yesterday when i got ur email..I saw that you also logged in in your ym....but you logged out also...


Being in this kind of relationship that we had was really at risk and impossible...but no matter what the circumstances are, we still tried to work it out...though we never know what comes next for the two of us...Dont feel so sorry to yourself for me... it happened already..you cannot turn back the hands of time anymore and save me from heartaches...
And besides there's no one to blame for the two of us...its not your fault, and not our fault...i guess its just that "there are some things which were not meant to happen and to be in one in this world"..that is a big realization in life that i've learned....and that letting go is doesnt mean that you are giving up your love for that person...but I guess its another way of letting your loved one to fly on his wings,..be happy...and find the true love that he yearns to have..."

Im wishing that youll be happy with that lovely lady...thought I feel still sad..of course...
I dont know how to start my life again after this..but Ill find my way...love will also lead me to a place where I would be also happy..

Dwen...thank you for making me happy...though i still love you,..i cant fight for this feeling anymore.."theres no sense of fighting for the person that you love when the love itself is not there any longer"...so I have to slowly take my parting steps away from there in your heart...and let "her" to take the place I once belong...

I want to take this chance to say THANK YOU for everything..for being there and making me happy, for giving me inspiration...I was so happy when you came into my life...and greatful too that I was able to touch your heart with my soul...I am so greatful that once in my life, i met someone like you...thank you very much...

Now,..I need to learn to be by myself and move on...of course Im still here as your friend...
ill be happy to accept your friendship..whenever you need advices, ill be more than willing to help you...you can send me emails..Thanks for the friendship..

Please send my regards to her..tell her to take care of you...and how i wish that i can get to know her to if you will let me to know her...My heart is more than enough welcome to know her...

I hate to end this letter..but I have to...I hate to send this to you but I have to...I hate to bid goodbye to your love but i have to...I have to to do this not because i hate you...but because i love...YOU...

friend?......

hope you'll find the love that you are looking and longing for...